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Old 11-13-2017, 05:45 AM   #1
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Today I知 declaring

Today I知 becoming Baha段. I just fill out a form saying 的 declare my belief in Bah癇u値l疉 as the Manifestation of God for this age. It's a simple statement but with many layers of meaning. On one level, it痴 the start of a new journey. After years of being tossed about on waves of doubt and guilt, I feel like I致e pulled aboard. Lost and on my own, I knew there had to be a way and a path but I couldn稚 see thru all the competing religious claims. There had to be a true worship of God alone. Every religion seems right but goes wrong really quickly like pieces of driftwood that are too small to hold any real weight, plunging me further into the depths. Now, I feel finally afloat and no longer alone. Together we venture into the deep waters of God痴 Love. I知 still learning my way on this new, strange and wondrous ship but have faith in my fellow rescues and in the goodness of the Captain.

On another level, I feel this conversion is a reclaiming of each of my past conversions. Not a breaking away from the past, but a returning home tour to the many places I once loved.

When I was 15, I embraced being Christian. I had grown up in the church and it always been a weekly thing. There weren稚 a lot of other kids in our episcopal congregation, so I often ended up being the only one in youth group. I was the acolyte every Sunday. It was just a given. I knew I was going to a priest, I never really questioned it.
Then as a teenager, I went to a retreat with others from other churches. It was an intense weekend culminating in an informal stations of the cross. As we reenacted Jesus sacrifice, I saw the other kids crying and the adults were just as emotional. It became real. I knew that Jesus had died for me and that God wanted me. I felt called and I knew I wanted to answer.

Answering the call wasn稚 easy though. It lead me thru theology school but then dumped me into the real world of minimum wage jobs and waiting. So I joined the army with promises of a secure path to chaplaincy. War is a terrible thing. I came home with emotions and nightmares I didn稚 understand. It wasn稚 supposed to be like this. My prayers felt unanswered.

So I found meditation. It saved my life. In the stillness of mind, I found peace and much more. I took refuge in the Buddha, the Dharma, and the Sangha. Thru the Dharma I found a pathless path that led to letting down all these dark thoughts and delusions. I experienced the perfection all around us of things just as they are. I felt God, yet I no longer knew Him.

God kept calling, just as he did at the church camp. But I tried not to answer. I tried to block Him and all the other delusions out. My Zen teacher died and I was practicing alone. I was without help and without God. I started looking for something else, a new meditation technique, a new mantra, anything.

Then I talked to a Jew. He wore funny clothes with knots on it and a strange cap. He had a lot of weird rules and said a lot of things that made no sense. But he taught me a mantra 鉄hema Israel. It was no mantra. I felt God head on. I was filled with His love and goodness. I devoured as much as I could of Torah, of the sages and of Kabbalah. I was filled with God痴 love.

So now I知 Bahai. I feel that today I致e come back around. I feel called and have embraced God痴 call. I致e taken refuge again in Him. I am filled anew with his overflowing love. Today, I知 a converting to all these things: Christian, Buddhist, Kabbalist and Baha段.
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Old 11-13-2017, 11:43 AM   #2
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Congratulations on your new spiritual journey! Welcome! It is so hard to find new Baha'is. I always knew you were a Baha'i.

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Old 11-13-2017, 04:02 PM   #3
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Congratulations and welcome! You have travelled a long spiritual journey and it doesn't end.

My wife has also journeyed through different spiritual paths before declaring as a Baha'i a year ago. Those include traditional Buddhist/Taoist/Confucian beliefs in her native Taiwan, then Ch'an and Vipassana Buddist practice, then Christianity then Baha'i. She has been blogging and writing about her experiences, such as at this site: plus also in Chinese.
Old 11-13-2017, 05:58 PM   #4
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Originally Posted by MysticMonist View Post
So now I知 Bahai. I feel that today I致e come back around. I feel called and have embraced God痴 call. I致e taken refuge again in Him. I am filled anew with his overflowing love. Today, I知 a converting to all these things: Christian, Buddhist, Kabbalist and Baha段.

Your story brought tears to my eyes... I love how you went through so many different traditions before you became a Baha'i...

I have been a Baha'i for 47 years but God's love still eludes me. I only hope that someday I will be as good a Baha'i as you already are.

Sincerely, Trailblazer
Old 11-13-2017, 06:59 PM   #5
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Old 11-13-2017, 08:41 PM   #6
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Am filled with gladness with news of another birth !!!

Coming from a small community, we used to celebrate a declaration, like a birthday.

Congratulations on making the journey!!! May your days be ever full and rewarding !
Old 11-13-2017, 09:11 PM   #7
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Praise God, brother! May your days be full of great peace and joy!
Old 11-14-2017, 01:19 AM   #8
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Old 11-14-2017, 08:16 AM   #9
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Allah-u-Abha, friend.
Old 11-16-2017, 02:43 PM   #10
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As someone who grew up Christian, and went through lots of periods of uncertainty with God, and somewhat funny enough being a practitioner of Kabbalah and applying it's methods to the Baha'i faith, I really resonate with your story. I'm certain myself and everyone here is more than glad to bring you into our spiritual family, friend.

Old 11-17-2017, 09:10 AM   #11
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Congratulations, MysticMonist!

I am sure this decision will be a turning point in your spiritual life .
We are already blessed, all of us around you, in this virtual forum, for knowing your love for God, His Message and Messengers.
Old 11-17-2017, 07:12 PM   #12
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Good on you, Allah'abha.

Regards Tony
Old 12-13-2017, 05:51 PM   #13
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Congrats! you seem to have found your path.
Old 12-24-2017, 09:56 AM   #14
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Congrats! I'm so happy for you!

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