|12-03-2016, 02:40 PM||#1|
Joined: Dec 2016
Dazed and confused
I am DonQuixote. I am 19 years old, and an unmoored spiritual traveller. Although born a Roman Catholic I have spent all of my life searching for a religion that makes me happy. In that process I have been a part of many religions, including Bahá'í; which I converted to in June of last year.
I have since fallen away from the Covenant, however, as I so often do; and am now lost and disturbed. I've been flipping between different faiths and have no idea what I believe anymore. I've always drawn great comfort from Bahá'í scripture, and consider that as I primary reason for possibly returning to the Faith; but also have my differences with the Faith as well.
I'm afraid of re-registering as a Bahá'í because I don't want the Bahá'ís I interacted with during my brief tenure as a Bahá'í to judge me for leaving the Faith after such a short time. I don't think my registration formally 'went through' as it were, as I never got a card or anything, but I don't know.
I'm lost and confused. Help a brother out?
|12-03-2016, 03:07 PM||#2|
Joined: Oct 2014
|12-04-2016, 08:53 PM||#3|
Joined: May 2013
From: forest falls california
It sounds like you are still in your "search" mode. Baha'u'llah says that the soul is the first to recognize its Creator. The mind follows.
In your interaction with Baha'is, you may have high expectations of them. We're all just human, like yourself. No wings or halos.
Take your time to continue your independent investigation of truth.
Perhaps learn some meditation. Observe the observer.
Above all, however, read the Writings every morning and evening.
Say the obligatory prayers.
Fast when it comes time for it.
Confirmations come only through obedience.
|12-05-2016, 07:24 AM||#4|
Joined: Jul 2014
Everyone faces spiritual struggles in their lives, some more, some less. No one is in a position to judge anyone else, nor should they want to be, such a blessing that God will sort everything out! We are all children of God, regardless of our faith or lack thereof....do not despair, you will find your way.
|12-06-2016, 04:20 AM||#5|
Joined: Mar 2013
From: Edwardsville, Illinois, USA
I would suggest that you don't assume that the local Baha'is would judge you harshly for not having settled in your faith yet. We certainly ought not to judge others, so if we do we are not quite living up to the Teachings. It is better to question one's own attitudes in that regard, otherwise, that would be judging others!
If you can have an attitude of tolerance and acceptance and love for everyone, then you may be a Baha'i.