Hello, I met some local Baha'is, a very small group, it is mainly one family who live close to me, plus a floating 3 or 4 who drift in and out. For about the past 8 months I've been going to their weekly devotionals. I love talking with them, finding out about the faith and discussing all kinds of things. I have no particular religious background, but am a constant seeker. What attracts me to Baha'i is the idea of unity, the tolerance, the gentleness, the love. I love reading the texts and prayers. However, there are problems. We started working through the Ruhi books, completed Book 1, which was kind of fun. But now we've started on Book 2, and I'm starting to feel uneasy. I feel as if it's too much too soon, as if this book is really for people who have already made a full commitment and want to teach and proselytise. Also, I started looking on line at all I could find on the Baha'i faith, and I'm very concerned about certain things - mainly the attitude to gays and the whole idea of shunning covenant-breakers. This goes completely against a spirit of tolerance. I don't feel I can continue with the Ruhi books, although I still really like these lovely people and would like to keep finding out about the faith and sharing feelings and thoughts with them. I suppose I feel bad about letting them down, and wish I could get out of the Ruhi thing without losing touch with them altogether. But the whole thing now seems to have turned into a Ruhi books course. I'm not sure what to do, and would welcome any advice. Many thanks.